Faces Faces and am I done yet? Faces 7 to 11

Ok just had to show off these new faces ..  Man it is daunting to think of doing 100 of them but I am determined to improve my drawing skills this year.  And so here without further ado…

Jane The Duke’s Oldest Daughter

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What do you think?  Leave me a comment with your thoughts and suggestions for other faces.

Thanks so much for looking!


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New Year, New Goals and New Art!

Hello 2015!

This is my year!  The year I make some significant changes, the year I truly start moving towards my dreams and into the life I know I am capable of living.  It is time to push myself, to learn new things, to build confidence and stand up for myself in every way shape or form.

I am proud to say that I have already started in a few areas of my life.  I stood up for myself at work with my supervisor.  A small thing for some people but a huge deal for me.  Now I just have to maintain my confidence and follow it through.  I have also started in a few groups one of which has a goal to draw 100 faces before the year is out and I have done 6 faces so far.  I just had to show them off ..  Some I like more than others and a few I simply adore and can not believe really that they came from my own hands. Here they are:

Morgan Le Fae

done with prismacolor coloured pencils and gamsil

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Branwen

Done with Prismacolor Colored Pencils and Gamsil

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Blue Haired Girl

Marvy Brush Markers and Tim Holtz Distress Markers

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Green Haired Girl

Neocolor II over White Acrylic

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Marvy Brush Markers and Neocolor II

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Some are better than others the last one above I feel like it needs more work in the face but love how the hair turned out.  Will keep posting more when I get them done.

Good Bye to 2014 and Silencing My Nasty Mouthed Inner Critic and Transforming Him Into My Greatest Cheerleader in 2015!

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2014 was in so many ways absolutely wonderful! I realize this fact and am grateful for the many blessings that manifested this year. Believe me I know how lucky I have and continue to be.

In addition to realizing how lucky I am.. I have to be honest and say that I am totally frustrated with myself as well. I have spent so much energy this year on trying to ignore my particularly nasty inner critic that I feel like a lot of my time was wasted. You know that voice that self sabotages you.. Mine has at times has left me so broken down, bogged down in fear and creatively blocked. I have felt so frozen for so long! I let myself keep myself from following through with the multitude of ideas that are generated by my own brain on a constant basis. 2014 was a year particularly heavy with the voice of that critic whose whisperings create doubt, fear and downright panic!

I long for change .. to move ahead in my journey yet if I continue on letting my inner critic (who happens to have a male voice) have its way I will be still stuck in the same situation, the same job, the same city, the rutt that I have been in for the last 9 years at least. I need change! I need to follow through with the talents and potential I know is there yet fear has kept me from developing.

Ok enough of the negative already! What is the purpose of this blog post? Well after my latest battle with said inner critic this past weekend I am determined to end the year with shutting him up and replacing him with an inner cheerleader and mentor in 2015.

2015 I am determined will be my breakthrough year! I am putting my foot down right here and right now. I am cheering myself on towards my dreams! One baby step at a time. What are those dreams you might ask? Here are a few of them..

Open an Etsy shop of my own to sell handmade, vintage and recycled items that are created or gathered by yours truly.
I want to drive across Canada to go to my brother’s wedding in August.
Self publish another book of art and poetry
Find a new job in a new city with a house in the country to rent.
And Finally..
Get a new kitty! (not until I move from where I am though)

As I was doing research for the Etsy shop today that nasty voice came crawling in .. and I say SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! I am so done with that voice only positivity can linger here from now until infinity!

Am I alone in this? I do not think so but at times it feels so lonely when I do not open up and let these things out. If you have read this far I thank you. I would love to hear from you. Leave me a comment below.

I DARE!

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For those of you on my facebook friends list it is no surprise that I tend to focus my posting on all things positive. Sometimes I post a little in a day and other days I may go a wee bit overboard. To the outside world I swear I must seem a polyanna type of person. This really is not the case. I use my facebook to really hone in on what issues I am working on within myself at the moment. I myself need the reminders desperately so some days.

I sometimes feel like quite the fraud projecting all this love and light when really there are days.. more than I would like to admit to when I am stuck, frozen and paralized with negativity and fear. I struggle hard to silence a particularly nasty inner critic that not only dulls my shine, but breaks my heart and soul. There have been a lot of days in the past and in this year in particular that I have let myself become so bogged down with this abusive thought process that I have frozen myself into a rather large rutt. One where I hide behind the status quo, I do not rock the boat, I let opportunities pass me by for fear of being noticed, for fear of rejection.

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As I look back I have been in this kind of holding pattern since I was a teenager. I learned early on to avoid pain and humiliation that it was better for me to be invisible than it was to be daring and try, truly try my best to see where I could end up.

Mind you I have not always conformed to the so called norm of society either.. I could not if I tried. I rebelled early on in my teen years declaring that I was not Christian. I had gone to a French Catholic primary school and yet never did I feel a lick of connection to the divine there. At the age of 14 my parents became Born Again Christians and yet again I felt no connection there. Quite the opposite in fact I was so uncomfortable attending that church but in retrospect it was necessary for me to stumble upon my true hearts path or at least the beginnings of it. By the age of 16 I was secretly doing research into alternative religions practically living in the local library. I would voraciously devour any and all books I could find particularly on faeries, druids and witches. At the age of 20 I was telling people I was not Christian (though not openly to my family this would come a good 13 or so years later).

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My point is that I did dare to be myself in some areas.. but only to a point. Over the intervening years as my path has meandered here and there I finally settled upon a path to seriously study as I had always felt a connection to anything and everything Avalon. I joined the Sisterhood of Avalon. Through its Cycle of Healing I have worked and delved into my shadow side making some wonderful progress and uncovering the next layer of work to be done. I have seen the difference in myself and am proud of the work I have done so far. Not only have I come out to my family that I am not Christian but gasp I am an artist. Yes I am pretentious enough to call myself an artist. That was a huge thing for me. I was making some great strides and had (still do) tons of ideas for spiritually centered art when I let comments from another artist in the community trigger a major set back in my confidence level. I let words from another person curtail my own natural enthusiastic project output, Eventually I was so crippled by negativity that my inner critic came back to life smirking.. “See I told you so now look at what happens when you express the real you” So my daring spirit froze and has been freezing ever since. True I have sojourned into different areas of art but my heart keeps yearning for a deeper meaning to my art offerings.

 

Desperate to break out of my own self constructed prison of immobility I started off last year with a rallying characterized by a line in Katy Perry’s song Roar “I went from zero to my own hero”.. so some of my motivation came back and so did the critical voice inside my head.

I was in a safe and secure place in my life how DARE I want more! What makes me think I deserve to have more, to be more , to shine more, in other words to be seen? The inner critic this past year has had me refrain from creating art, hesitating to create what I truly want to and sharing very little about myself, my art, or to ever really let people see me or get close to me.

I have been wanting change for some time now.. I ache for it really. All this came to a head as we headed into another Cycle of Healing. I truly heard how I was speaking to myself. Words so nasty and terribly paralizing that I know I never would say that to another person.. Why was I saying these things to myself .. constantly to the point where I did not know I was doing it but others certainly noticed. This brought on a deep sorrow and anger towards myself for letting it happen. I sat with this feeling for a couple of weeks when last week it dawned on me that when I am utterly and completely exhausted in body that my inner critic finds it very very easy to successfully insinuate negativity into my mind. I have since been consciously trying to nip such behavious in the bud, stopping myself with kindness and affirmations. So far it seems to be working it just will take some time to ingrain it into my psyche.

In the past week both in my readings and in ritual I have been getting that it is time to come out of hiding, out of the shadows to let myself shine and Dare to be myself for all to see. Hence the name of this rather long blog post.

 

I keep seeing this in one for or another everywhere.
I dare you
Dare to be
Dare to do

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What is being presented to me is that if I DARE, my tribe will find me. The more I DARE to show the world who I truly am the happier more joyful I will become. The more I DARE to dream big the more I will be able to focus my clear intentions to bring them about

Do I dare to live freely, as myself with no part of me hidden away? Sometime I feel like I am every bit of the adventurous daring girl I once was.. And other days I feel so alone wish I could find like minded people to provide the mutual support we all need to keep moving forward no matter what we are dealing with at that moment.

I DARE to reveal myself in this blog post and in my dreams wishes and goals for the future. I hope to find others who Dare to do similar things with me along the way.

I DARE!

A New Year and A New Adventure!

After months of debating wishing and planning I finally decided that as my big gift for the holiday season 2013 I would wait until I got my income tax refund and let my hubby gift me with another big girl tool…

 

The Silhouette Cameo!!

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I have only had it since Tuesday and so I am still in the midst of the learning curve with both the machine (electronic cutters are new territory for me) and the software.  I must say though I am totally loving the cuts I have gotten so far!  I had spent the last couple of months gathering free files plus have been experimenting with designing my own files using my own artwork.  I have yet to try to cut these out but will share my results once I do so.  There is so much to do with this wonderful machine and I am looking forward to creating more spiritual inspired art with the aid of the cameo.

That is what is tickling my fancies these days.. how about you?

12 Crafty Challenges part 2

Whew!  What a busy November and now December!  Here is the next five challenges in the 12 craft challenges hosted by the group Scrapbook Friends & More Crafts found on facebook.

Challenge 6:  Realistic painting of an animal.  I chose to do a White Raven.Image

 

Challenge 7:  Glass painting in a holiday theme.  I chose to paint a frosted jar which I will use as a candle holder.

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Challenge 8: Organic Wreath:  I used a woven reed base with ornamental grasses that were fluffy and looked like a foxes tail then added feathers from various birds like Raven, Swan, Duck, turkey vulture, pheasant and blue jay.

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Challenge 9 Cardmaking  Make 3 fancy cards.  I had to be holiday themed, 1 a thinking of you card and the other one was birthday themed. 

For the holiday themed card I constructed a Tri-fold shutter card.

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For the Birthday Card I did a pop out card

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For the Thinking of You card I did an Accordion Fold Tag Card which I had the tag looking like a suitcase.

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I am so proud of myself for making it this far! We only have 3 more challenges and from nearly a 180 crafters only 35 are left!  I must say that I will definitely have to participate in another 12 challenges if they ever have another one as it really pushed me to think outside my box!  I so far have only spent five dollars in total over these challenges so far.  Most everything has been from my stash!  Just goes to show how much I love arts and crafts! 

As usual thank for looking and any comments and suggestions are welcome!

 

Kathleen ❤

12 Crafty Challenges Part 1

At the beginning of this month I started a major undertaking .. A challenge or rather 12 craft challenges hosted by the Group:  Scrapbook Friends and More Crafts on Facebook.  We are now almost half way through here is my results for the first five challenges.

Challenge #1 Paper Crafting

Had to use yellow orange and brown in your craft and it could not be scrapbooking or a card.  I chose to do paper shaping and made a paper mask.  I hand drew and cut out the leaves in yellow orange and brown cardstock,  Then I sprayed them with various glimmer sprays to give it the shine and then bent them while still damp to look like curling leaves ..It also gave them a cool leathery look as well.

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Challenge #2  Repurposing of a household item.

Had to reuse or recycle a household item and the theme had to be the holidays. The ribbon used in the project had to be clearly a holiday themed ribbon with either words or a symbol portraying the holiday. I chose to repurpose a paper mache box into an ornament.  I used recycled parts of old holiday decorations centered around a glittery cardinal.

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Challenge #3  Mosaics

Mosaics any theme must have the colour blue in the project.

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Challenge # 4 Clay

Has to be a minimum of 3 inches, botanical or food themed and realistic in nature.  I chose to do an apple slice made of children’s modeling clay.  Will definitely have to remake this using a permanent clay!  This was so fun and quick to make ..  I painted the white clay with acrylics that were slightly on the thick side.

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Challenge #5 Threads

Projects needed Red Green and Gold thread, yarn, crochet cotton etc  and be made by any method.  I chose to do a braided lucet bracelet with charms.  I love the lucet!  Its a Viking age craft that I picked up in my SCA (Society of Creative Anachronism) days.  I made each cord separately and added the charms right into the green cord as I was making it.  I had a blast expanding my knowledge with this tool!

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