Well another Cycle of Healing is upon us and I feel descent pulling me forward on my quest to find my own sovereignty.
For the past few years this journey around the cycle has been pretty much art focused and this year is no exception.
I feel like this Cycle is going to be epic for me but only if I put my whole being into it mind, body and soul. Too long have I at times hid behind my self-constructed and self-imposed walls and other times I have begrudged and bemoaned them. I know my own self-protectiveness is holding me back from achieving my deepest wildest and my most mundane dreams and goals. The walls yes do keep me safe but they also keep me stuck in a very deep very comfortable rut! No one truly sees me.. The Whole of Me and my spirit is crying out because of it. It is because of this that I have fits of melancholy that hit me out of nowhere, fits that are sometimes hard to break free from. Fits that make it easier to hide thus reinforcing my perceived need for the walls.
I feel the need down deep in my core to break free from this self imposed prison. I need to let my voice be heard I have a theme song for this Cycle already and it keeps appearing everywhere I go particularly at my workplace! Where truthfully I have work to do in that area of exerting my rights and letting my voice be heard without fear and worry. Katy Perry you rock! Your song ROAR! Is my theme song right now! There is a particular line in that song that has stuck with me from the first time I heard ROAR:
I WENT FROM ZERO TO MY OWN HERO!
So here I am eager to begin the Cycle, to truly set my feet upon the path to become my own hero and I am using my art journey to do just that!
I used to worry that my art would not be accepted for many reasons like it was not good enough to show publicly, that it was too spiritually specific to appeal to others and even the opposite that it was not spiritual enough to share with you all.. But the truth of the matter is that all arts and all crafts are spiritual! It just took me a while to truly figure that out for myself and have it sink into my very thick skull!
It is my time to be visible, my time to be fully me, to let people see very single facet of me be it mentally, spiritually or physically!
NO MORE HIDING!
NO MORE DETACHMENT FROM THE WORLD AND THOSE AROUND ME WHO MATTER MOST!
IT IS MY TIME TO SHINE!
IT IS MY TIME TO BE HEARD!
HEAR ME ROAR!!